Are you happy now?

We're gonna die whenever. Nobody knows when. But Imam Ghazali said 'Death' is the closest things that ever happened to us. Are you living your every single day happily? just in case you would die hours after reading this. Remember the feeling when you ended your school days, time's flying fast. and the feeling when you graduated? time's sure flying fast. That we'll be the exact feeling when you're in your deathbed. Wait, it will be added with your everlasting regret on your lack of 'ibadah'.

Had to use the badasses one. 

So, there's a person telling me that I am the most positive person alive so far. 

Wrong. I may look positive, but what I can deduct about myself is I am neither a pessimist nor optimist. I'm a blood-sucking opportunist. I'm seeking chances while making friends. And in friendship, I essentialize mutualism. If I help you, you need to help me back. And to befriend me, is your choice.

I don't get sad. I go upset. Rage and move on.

Have you ever heard bout the happiest person is actually the one with a saddest past?, they look happy and make other people happy because the know how shitty being sad is. I once have a history when someone made a total shit out of me, being condemned though i am the innocent one. I cried like a child, lol. But that was the saddest moment in my life. Even sadder than the day when my grandmother passed away. I lost my confidence, I was depressed for a week, thinking stupid stuff, blaming myself. Look at the bright side, bitch. Being humiliated in public in the past, made me bolder today. Thanks, cikgu. Move on. Things come and go. Move on is not trying to forget a person or a sad history. Live with it. And have it as a history. So, same goes to you. When a bad thing happened, it surely will go. And something good will come as a reward. For example, you lost your leg in an accident. What you have now? You're a tougher person, now. Even petty things, when you're grateful enough, it counts. Like my CLK. Cute little Kancil. Actually, i already saved my own money and can buy Produa Axia in fucking cash. Hahahah. I just love to be an underdog and being underestimated. 

Every time I am having an inner rage with someone, I always imagine my self as Gilgamesh,
with Babylon's gate weapons shooting you mongrels. Pfff

I do forgive. I don't forget. And most of the time, zero fuck were given.

When you have an everlasting rage and grudge toward people, you won't have a single soundly sleep. You wont have a peace of mind. Grudge is like a flame burning inside. The longer you have it, the bigger the damage in your heart. Overkill. Do forgive. Do forgive them. Just accept that they are stupid enough to make the mistake. But never ever forget what they did to you, learnt it. Don't let them happen twice. What made you an easy kill? Your fucking sensitivity. When you care too much, expect too much, listen to people judgement too much. You are committing yourself a suicide. Start listening to yourself. People talks but they're not even perfect to judge you. You should know the time when you should give them zero fuck.  BUT, never give zero fuck to those you think eligible enough to improve you.

and dont forget to smirk when people telling you stuff, and you are giving the zero fuck.

The best motivation for you is yourself. No one can help you. 

Most of the times, your own enemy is laziness. That's why you can see faggot adults just spend their time doing nothing at home, without any effort to get employed, laying on the fucking couch. Jeez. I used to wish that I could be them. Lol. But seriously, at the end, those who just laze around will be doomed. Allah will reward those who work hard. Motivation can be made. I often look at other people better than me. I don't want to be rich in the end. I just want to feel adequate enough as a human. And die with less regret. 

Everyone has their own problem. Whats differ people's problems are their state of negativity.

I have a funny problem. You all know that I am a new staff in a multinational corporation company rite? So, this company require me to speak in English. And..and I used to be known as the best in presenting ideas during university crit session. BUT I TELL YOU, ALL MY SKILL IS GONE. Pffft.
I'm not sure what is happening. I am lack of confidence here, lol. I am not being my fucking self. Hahahahha.  Like seriously, who am I here?  Most of the time I am just 'ahhh...okay...alright' with Jazzabelle (my boss - not the real name). Things like going 270° degree since i moved here. I am very quiet here. Hahahahahah. I'm sure you guys won't be able to imagine me. But I'm fine with it. I will get my self trained well. No problem, I accept my weakness and I'm overcoming it little by little. 

Stop being a fucking pessimist, stop blaming yourself and the circumstances happened to you, fucked you up, don't ever tell that the world is being unfair with you. Your life is in your hand. Live it well, bitch.