So sorry. A girl like me like to spend on things that is not so girly enough. Perempuan macam aku mungkin patut spend untuk baju wanita, eye-liner, lip-gloss what so-fucking-ever, but aku tak ada keinginan begitu. Kenapaaaa?! God why?!!
Hahhaha, It is hard to embrace my true self. Aku ada kecelaruan identity ke? AKU NAK JADI PEREMPUAN TYPICAL, yang sweet, cantik, composed. Like seriously, tapi aku tak ada usaha for fuck sake.
Why?! Adakah aku khunsa? Hahhaha, nope i dont have double genitals. I want to be pretty but i dont like makeups on my face. Aku tak despise perempuan makeup but I dont like me myself in make up. BUT I DO HATE SKIN BLEACHING. Apasal semua nak jadi putih pucat, wehh, kita ni orang Malaysia under garisan Khatulistiwa (woah im legit). Tuhan kasi skin color goldish dah just nice. Kenapa?! Kenapa nak putih mcm Korean? Kenapa lelaki pun terpengaruh nak awek kulit putih? Why Why?
Okay. Aku sebenarnya nak cerita pasal apa yang aku perlu bulan depan. Time tak ada duit tengah bulan lah aku nak banyak benda. Biasalah
1. A NERF GUN
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Yesss! Aku rasa nak tembak banyak benda sekeliling aku. Tupai, Kucing, Ayam! Adik lelaki aku susah
nak dikejutkan. Benda ini aku rasa bagus. Aku tak kisah annoy orang |
2. A PHONE HOLDER FOR MY GODDAMN BIKE
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| Ini untuk aku main Pokemon. Tak payahlah asyik berhenti kat Pokestop, keluarkan phone dari poket. |
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Sekejap. Woah. I was messaging my friend by the time I am writing this, and she text me in the Messenger that she felt horny af this morning. Because I am self-gender-confused, i dont know what to reply and awkwardly had to ignore the chat. Sorry. I know you'll be reading this. The truth is I don't really know what horny feels like. (I am not that naivë for that phrase, but sincerely I can tell you that my puberty haven't completed enough to tell me how my female system works) Well. I saw some 18sx scenes on Deadpool. Hahahahhaha - cried. And so far, my crushes are Kamen Rider Lazer on Ex-Aid, Gai Kurenai in Ultraman Orb, Dean Winchester, Flint Carroll (Hunters) and Ryan Reynolds. Hahahahah - cried.
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| I have a soft spot for guys in floral top. |
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| And every Ultraman's human host since 1996. My mom was feeding me with ultramans shows since I was 3. Ultraman 80, Ultraman Taro, Jack, Leo. Whyyyyyy?! |
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| No! Aan! No! - I also have soft spots for any guy that's an elder brother to someone. And funny, and humorous and a talker that probably is SAVAGE AF. |
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| PLEASE be a little bit wild like Flint. We'll go trek together, hunt together in the wild. Cue music - Wild, Troye Sivan. Oh so gay. |
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| BUT WHY? |
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OHHH. SO sorry, i was distracted and pretty well over-whelmed by my friend's statement. EH KENAPA AKU WRITE IN ENGLISH. Hahahah, kadang-kadang aku berfikir atau monologue dalaman aku bahasa english, tak tahu kenapa. Wait~ Seriously. Dah lama siak bahasa dalaman aku bahasa english. Aku baru terfikir saat ni.
DAH BERBALIK KEPADA WiSHLIST AKU.
3. WING GUNDAM ZERO 1/100
Who pilots this Gundam? Heero yuy did.
Wing Zero is also my first non-human crush. My second was a Megazord from Power Ranger. (What a shame) No sorry for this.
4. FOUR PIECES LONG-SLEEVED SHIRT
I dont care what brand they comes from. As long as I can wear them to cycle, hangout and to work. Okay. Good night. I can't read your heart.
