Don't Be Sad For Too Long

Being able to experience sadness is a proof that you're human. Even animals can be upset and sad. So embrace your emotions. Pain demands to be felt. It's the beauty of being alive. There's no certainty that you'll feel the same worldly emotions later on in the afterlife. 

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Sadness will make you be more grateful of the happiness you less appreciated before. So yeah —Acknowledge your feeling, take time and come back stronger.

I am currently experiencing this sad feeling. I had a conflict with my mom—just a petty issue, but due to the differences in how the eldest sibling and the younger one were raised, it feels significant to me. The eldest child grew up while the parents were still experimenting on how to this and that. I am the result of their trials and errors and I can't change the past. My mom is the only mom that I have and her blessing is my everything. P/s: but she's not necessarily correct the entire time! I can't blame her much. She only attended high school and doesn't have the critical thinking capacity like I do. See, I should be grateful that she gave me the proper education needed to exceed hers.

Terima kasih, mama.

Anyhow, I'm day 3 into the sadness, haha. I no longer cry uncontrollably. Maybe my eyes will get teary if my brain rewind the words that she said (remember, words are sharper than a knife). I'm in the phrase of 'it is what it is'. My challenge now is 'How can I not be sad for too long?'

Today, I took some efforts to dissipate my sadness.

Feelings are just chemicals inside the brain.

Hormones; lacking serotonin and dopamine cause you to delve deeper into negativity. Quick fix: caffeine and sugar, also exercising.

Did things that made me happy. I bought new Korean cute pastries sticker set from Tsutaya Bookstore. Also a new sketchbook. 💸💸. I do impulsive purchases when I'm sad. 

Yes, expensive.

I sketched something! Haven't draw anything kawaii for awhile. So I sketched something on my new sketchbook.

Alone time to self-reflex. I ate lunch and dinner alone today. Because of my teary-sometime eyes. It'll be awkward.

Spend time with friends and colleague. Luckily it's badminton day Tuesday. 

I had some great laughs. I also chatted with my UI/UX university friends about how my friend - Diana complete collection of seasonings in her kitchen. My colleague, Tzyy also shared with me goosebump-able songs from TVXQ, lol.

And last but not least by writing this, so future me will be proud that I got thru this.