Live Fast, Die Young

This is going to be short, just some rantings. But sometimes (low-key every time) I get sick, I'll be under the impression of I'm going to live fast die young.   

No lie, I bought 2 life insurance policies from 2 different companies, along with my medical card plan because of this shit running in my blood. I've been living with this high white blood count since finishing my highschool. Now, I've been putting up with this for 11 years already. Every time the count hikes up for no reason, I'll be burning up 38°C++ to 40°C, tremoring as fuck and it is damn annoying. 

My results from my complete blood test these 3 months. WBC – white blood count, Gran# – granulocytes (neutrophils, eosinophils, basophils), Lym% – my lymphocyte is also low most of the time, lol. – I got A for my SPM's Bio 😏

Every time I dropped by the clinic, they'll do the blood test because they already knew something's wrong when you're on a fever without any flu symptoms. I actually already went to the Pantai Hospital and went thru surgery to remove the thing that they said to trigger the high white blood production back in 2019, and they checked the tissue sample and the tumor cells were benign and noncancerous. And guess what, after 1 year the symptoms are relapsing. The white blood count still rocketing up for unknown reasons, I'm still getting the tremors too hard I'll pass out every time from it. Not to brag, but Aan can withstand high-grade fever well, not like the weakass hero in the Korean/Chinese drama, pfft.

Nevertheless, this thing I'm having made me emotionally numb on my life expectancy — It is okay for me to die young. But I need to make sure that my short life (if so) should be as much beneficial as possible. I'll try to be home with my family whenever I have the time, I'll cherish the friends that I still have, go out with them while hoping they will come up and pray for me when I died later on, hahaha. 

And I'll go all-out 100% to do things that make me happy. I'll quit the job that can ruin my emotional stability. I just spend the money on what I want, any food I feel like eating. I would gladly take any risk and try out new stuff, just to maximize my life experiences. It would be mundane to die young without living it to the fullest, right?

Every piece of knowledge I have, I feel like letting them out, share it with everyone. I shall give everyone unsolicited advice from my experience, my skills collected over the years of my career. I won't beat around the bushes anymore and will be more direct and honest.

So far, I'm doing fine and I love myself for doing fine, haha. So, future Aan, if you're still alive and old now while reading this; 

Congratulation in advance for surviving, you cheeky bastard! — 2021's Aan.